Confidence: Must Do Better.

I went out to a lesbian film night this evening. There was a private viewing of one of my favourite movies(as you can see from the background image on this blog) 'Imagine Me & You'. I met up with a friend, and we went along together for moral support really, as neither of us do large groups of people very well.

Anyway, I spotted a few nice women looking over at me over the evening - though being completely rubbish, I couldn't tell if it was because I was one of the few dark faces there, or if they were with someone and just giving me a curious glance. But then, towards the end of the evening, a rather gorgeous, but very intense woman sat across the room from me, and as I spoke to a few friends at a table by the window, she would glance across to me from time to time while she was on her cell phone to someone. At first I wasn't sure if it was just our eyes catching as she rather intensely spoke to someone on the phone, but it slowly dawned on me (I am annoyingly slow in these situations), that maybe she liked me. Then my friend and I glanced at our watches, and realised that we would miss the last train home if we stayed any longer, and we left soon after, with me passing by this lovely lady on our way out, and her glancing up at me expectantly - but damn it, I was too shy to say anything - put off somewhat by her intensity and agressively gesturing phone conversation. She reminded me of a really negative woman I met last year, and I wondered, as cute as she was, if I would be getting into something a bit too complicated for my already stressed self at this point in time...

I'm an idiot, I know - I mean, how will I ever get to be with someone else if I never talk to someone? Moron. Silly, shy moron is me.

I'm hoping this isn't the one and only time I get such a chance - I really don't intend to blow it quite so successfully next time.